Me vs Life

I feel like I'm different breed, like I'm not supposed to live normal like the others, I think I need to accept this fate, I wish the things were different, but I'm tired... I'm fearless, can't cry I tried to cry normally like others but I cant, there is no tears, only heat in my chest with rage I'm human after all I guess, so when I die, I would rather die alone so that I won't be a burden on those around me.. I think this is my ultimate wish